Yesterday our Pastor talked about risking everything for God. Taking that leap of faith and balancing on a "maybe". Maybe God will do something miraculous, maybe God will move after I move first. Maybe God will come up under me and do something never before experienced. He also talked about "boring Christians" the people that coast along on auto pilot, their risk goes so far as to hope for a house, or hope to feel God in their lives on Sundays only.
I want more.
I want more than to be another boring Christian, leading a life of no risk just safety. I want to grow, and learn and move forward for God. I want to be used in mighty ways. I want to leap off a mountain and know God will come up under me just because that's how He is. I want to let go of my insecurities and let Him lead me.
My family and I have faced many challenges this past year. The big mountain we're climbing now is that I quit my job. I know now why God told me to do that. Our Pastor told us every year we should have at least 1 big Holy ambitious goal that we're reaching for. Something completley beyond our reach, something we could never even hope to accomplish without God's help.
My goal for this year is to learn how to be a Children's Pastor. When God first told me to quit my job He just said that I wouldn't have time to work at the bank and do what He wants me to do at the same time. I didn't know where the money was going to come from, I didn't know what that meant for our family I just knew God would move.
I know that I'm supposed to be a stay at home mom and raise my kids for God but He also wants me to work in the Church. I'm "training" for lack of a better word to be a Children's Pastor. In June I will be downstairs full time watching and learning and waiting. When God says I'm ready, He will raise me up. Until then I am to soak in as much information as I possibly can. If you know me personally, you know this is not me. I am quiet, and shy and I don't like talking. I don't like groups of people...this is all God.
God is doing something new in our Church and in me. I'm so greatful He got ahold of me last year. I love my Lord more than anything else and I want to make Him proud. Happy Birthday to my heart, thank you Jesus.
Be alert, be present. I'm about to do something brand-new. It's bursting out! Don't you see it? There it is! I'm making a road through the desert, rivers in the badlands. Isaiah 43:19 Msg