Good Morning, friends. I'm sorry I haven't written in a long time. God and I have been working through a few things. I want to share one of the really big things He's been speaking to me about latley.
At any given time my mind will be racing. What to have for dinner, what I need to get done around the house. What bills need to be paid, how much and when. Even things that don't have any real purpose at all, I'm just not able to quiet my thoughts. Sometimes I have 50 million prayers going to God, He hears our thoughts so I wonder what He must think of all this stuff being directed at Him.
Sitting still to hear Him is virtually impossible. I've tried time and time again to just sit still in His prescence but my mind starts to race and I get frustrated. As I've been home from work for a week and my children have thrown one test at me after another and I continue to fail these tests my mind takes a different direction.
I'm a failure. I've made a horrible mistake. I should have let our daycare lady continue to raise my children because I'm not cut out for the full-time mom business. I will never get this right so why even try.
"...and we take every thought captive to make it obedient to Christ..." 2nd Corinthians 10:5
Did you know we are able to take our thoughts captive? That means back them up against a wall shake our finger at them and say NO, I'm a child of God this is NOT how I want to think and I will NOT let this way of thinking run my life anymore.