A love that can't be measured

5 years 9 months~

That's how long I've worked at the bank.

5 1/2 years

That's how long I've been married.

3 years.

That's how long I've had my two beautiful babies.

9 months.

That's how long I've been with God.

9 months. Just nine months ago I was "that" girl. The one with all the problems. The one so loaded down by her burden that she was walking around in a fog. The girl without any friends. The invisible one. The one who talked and thought about divorce every day for 2 years. The one who turned to food for comfort and acceptance. The one who searched high and low in all the wrong places for the love she desperatley desired, The girl who longed to be noticed, who longed to be loved but who only got ridicule and judgement.

I cry just thinking about it.

Look how far God has brought me. It is all about Him after all. I sure didn't do this. Today is my last day at my job. God told me 2 months ago to quit my job. He didn't tell me when, He just told me to do it so I started praying about the "when" and He finally told me one Sunday morning and the very next day I put in my notice. I'm excited and nervous all at the same time. What do you have for me Father. What can I do for You. You've done so much for me.

You've brought me friends. True friends. You've created in me a hunger for the Truth. A hunger for more of Your Word. A hunger to make you proud. You've allowed me to be part of a new ministry. You've allowed me to encourage others with my journey on this blog. You've allowed my husband and I to fix our marriage and we continually move closer and closer to you as a couple. You've allowed me a Church family and you've opened a spot up for me on the worship team. You saved my life Father and now you hold me so close that I know nothing will separate us, even when I'm disobedient even as I'm a sinner you still hold me in your loving embrace. You've shown me a love like nothing I've ever experienced, a love that can't be measured.

I'm not "that girl" anymore. God is restoring me, He continues to heal my heart. He gave me a second chance. I'm beautiful because I'm His. If you are feeling like "that" girl today. You are not alone.

He sees you. He knows you. He knows your pain. He loves you.

Do you need a second chance today? He's waiting for you with outstretched arms. He's calling to you and He's waiting for you. His grace is enough, His love is enough to cover anything you might have done or said or even thought. He's enough for YOU.