Tuesday, January 3, 2012

What do you do?

I clean when I get stressed. I also write. I write to make this world make sense. To make some sense of my out of control emotions. To channel my feelings into a small box on blogger so they don't come bursting out of me like flames of stress and anxiety.

Yes, sometimes I am stressed. Sometimes I'm anxious and sometimes I just kneel in the midst of these feelings and wait for my Daddy to make it all better...He's working on making it all better even as I type.

So tell me,

What do you do when your husband just lost his job.
What do you do when the IRS is knocking on your door.
What do you do when the police come to take a loved one away because of some misunderstanding.
What do you do when your electric has been shut off and so has your water and you have 4 mouths to feed and no money to pay your bills.
What do you do when it seems the whole world has turned against you and it's only you and God and you're not even sure He's on your side anymore?
What do you do when someone you love is sick or dieing and God is not answering your prayers.
What do you do when someone you love very much keeps rejecting God's word over and over and over again.

I'll tell you what I do...what I am going to start doing as of right now.

I'm going to kneel. This world is giving me too much to bear right now. My shoulders are heavy. My heart is tired. He lost his job today. My husband, that is. Satan keeps reminding me of all the things we won't have. Insurance being a big one. He keeps reminding me that unemployment won't even pay probably half our bills. He tries to tell me I need to help God with this one. He tries to tell me God won't take care of us because I was ungrateful and wanted my husband home with us.

I'm going to kneel.

I'm going to open my arms, lift up my eyes and kneel at Daddy's feet. I'm going to wait for His touch that tells me it will be ok. I know He will take care of us, He has given us so much in this life. I want freedom this year, I won't be weighed down by this heavy burden. It's not mine to carry. I know God will help us and I know this was not my fault. I know God does not need my help, He already has the outcome planned out and in motion.

Even when we can't see the finish line, we can be sure He's got it taken care of. He created the whole earth in 7 days, I'm sure He can take care of this very small thing.

My Spirit is excited, God is going to do something amazing. He's pushing my husband to His purpose. Many people will see and believe in Him as this plays out. Watching and waiting is hard, but I can't help God on this one...that will only cause a mess...and we don't need any more mess.

When life gives you too much to stand...kneel friends. Kneel and wait for that touch. The touch of God on  your shoulders letting you know that whatever the world is throwing at you in this moment, God has already overcome and He will take care of you.

Excuse me while I go pray now.


Jenifer Metzger said...

You know I am praying right there with you sweet sister. God will supply the needs. I've heard it put: when you can't stand, kneel. I am kneeling along side you.

Unknown said...

Mandy, your life excites me. I know that may sound a little warped, but you know what I mean. :) I so clearly see God working and moving in your heart and providing for your family. And what He does for you I know He will do for me - and anyone else who cries out to Him. God will be glorified through this situation and you WILL be ok. I'm praying with you and for you.

Phather Phil Malmstrom said...

Mandy, my dear friend... God has you firmly in His loving embrace. Through your posts and over Facebook, I've watched such an emergence of God's presence in your lives over the last year. He knows your heart, and loves you so dearly...

God already knows what you need...

God's got this,

And God's got you.

You're in my prayers.

Have a Blessed Day!

Kristin Bridgman said...

I've been on the knees for YEARS and God always hears and he always answers the faithful in His time. I can tell you are faithful. We've been there, no job and waiting for answers. They came:) And so will yours.
(visiting from Lisa and Jen's place)
I will say a prayer too for you and your husband.