Pages

Friday, October 21, 2011

The Tree

(This is not the tree, but this is beautiful)

There's a tree outside our backdoor. Like all the other trees it has started to change with the fall season. Today I opened the curtain to let some sunshine in and the sunrise was beautiful. Breathtaking. The sky was bright blue and the clouds were whispy. As my children sat eating breakfast I admired the sunrise and I heard God whisper "I love you more". More than the sunrise, more than those whispy clouds, more than the fall colors you admire so much. I love you more"

My eye caught the tree then, that I mentioned at the beginning of this. I really looked at it and noticed one side was red with all the beautiful fall colors and the other side was still green. It looked like the change was straight down the middle. One side changed, one side not. As I stood there thinking about that tree and letting my brain wander and daydream God interrupted and said "change takes time"

God and I have been wrestling so to speak. My heart is full of ugliness. Anger, bitterness, selfishness, every day no matter how hard I try, all of it comes to the surface. I let someone else's actions or mood affect me and off I go in an adult temper tantrum. It's awful. Every day I cry and cry out to God to change me. How can this stuff possibly be a blessing, I can't make myself believe I'm meant to carry this around forever to keep me close to You Lord...that's what I asked Him last night. He was quiet last night but today He gave me my answer. Every day I ask Him to change my heart and expect to be changed, just like that. It's not that easy, if we've been the same way for 18, 20, 25 years then it's going to take time and patience and trust on our part to let God do His work.

He uses our circumstances, however extreme they may be to change us.

I get so frustrated when I'm met with the same awful attitude day in and day out, no matter how hard I cling, how hard I try. Just like God told me this morning though...

"Change takes time. Be patient and trust in Me"

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, Ephesians 3:20

being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. Philippians 1:6

You're Grace is sufficient for me, Lord.

I'm also posting at Woman to Woman Ministries today. Click over and check it out. There's also a give-away going on over there, it's pretty awesome - Casting Crown's new CD The Well

3 comments:

Lisa said...

Mandy, I love it when God speaks to us this way. Change does take time; and just like the trees, God is doing something beautiful in us. Keep trusting and leaning on Him.

Jenifer said...

Beautiful post Mandy. God's gentle reminders of His love are so precious. Change does take time, this is something I, too, am realizing.

~ linda said...

Thank you, Mandy, for I needed to be reminded. I am patient for all kinds of things and other people, yet not for me and myself! I want to be as God wants me to be in a heartbeat. As seasons bring God's beauty, He takes us through seasons of life and it all takes time.
May He bring the beauty of fall colors into each of lives as we patiently watch Him grow us.
Caring through Christ, ~ linda