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Thursday, September 1, 2011

A seed

One day, probably a really long time ago, someone planted a seed in you. A seed of faith and a seed of doubt. A seed of comfort and a seed of fear. A seed of hope and a seed of despair. Every thought you've ever had started as a seed first.

When I was younger the seeds of doubt, fear and despair were planted in me. Nothing I ever did was good enough. I was not "more like my sister" so thoughtful and helpful and loving so there must have been something wrong with me. Every day, one more seed would be planted. One more fear was realized, one more dream faded.

My grades were horrible, I hated school. I had good friends when they felt like it. Food was my comfort. My music was my joy. I looked for love in all the wrong places, anywhere I could find it no matter how bad or dangerous or how awful it made me feel.

These seeds for me grew into vines, into huge steel chains that made me afraid to go outside as an adult. That made me afraid to speak to people because of the shame of my past. And then God started chasing me down...

Is this you today? Are you facing steal chains of your own?

Don't you know that God is the ultimate gardner and He's planting seeds of His own in you.

Right now He says come to me all you who are weary and heavy burdened and I will give you rest. That's a promise and a seed. He plants seeds of hope, love, faith. He whispers to your heart "I believe in you" He puts people in your path that come along side you and lift you up to Him in prayer. He gives you a family that will speak love and hope into your life. His seeds are so much more powerful than Satan's. The seeds that were planted in your life aren't from the people you knew, they were from Satan. They were to keep you from your place at God's table, you make Satan afraid of you so he started when you were young trying to keep you from God. It's not about you it's about what God wants to do in you that makes him afraid. God is the ultimate locksmith too. He has the keys to those chains you carry around and He's giving you the choice. Are you going to shed the chains, the fear, the doubt and take what He has for you or are you going to continue walking as you've always walked with the weight of the world on your shoulders. Might I share with you that you were never meant to carry that weight and He wants it back today.

He's the ultimate gardner and the seeds He's planting today are going to grow with His Living Water and turn into beauty beyond your imagination.

My story has not ended yet but I can tell you the seeds that were planted long long ago are being uprooted every day and I'm being set free every day of one more fear. Shame does not have its hold on me any longer. Will you choose to fight with me, God will be victorious but He wants you to fight too.

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Ephesians 6:12

6 comments:

Lisa said...

God is faithful to complete this work he has begun. That means He will continue to water and grow these seeds He has planted in our hearts. He's doing a new thing - do you see it? Life is springing forth in the desert! And now we are free!

Jedidja said...

Thanks for this nice blog. Thanks to the Lord! He is our patient Gardener. I really need today His Living Water.

Jenifer said...

Great encouragement! Seeds were planted and now being harvested.

Heidi said...

Love this... "He's the ultimate gardner and the seeds He's planting today are going to grow with His Living Water and turn into beauty beyond your imagination." I'm so glad to be in His garden! Great post Mandy!

Phather Phil Malmstrom said...

Wonderfully transparent Mandy, and absolutely beautiful. The seeds growing in you now are so obviously of Him, and I'm loving seeing them sprout in your writing. :-)

Have a Blessed Day!

Kelli said...

This is a wonderful message. Yes, thank goodness we have a merciful gardener. One who waters a little extra when we run dry. One who takes extra special care when we feel wilty. One who loves us no matter what!:)