Wednesday, July 20, 2011

But God

It was 3 weeks before I quit my job. I had bombarded God with questions about what He wanted me to do, what was next after I left the bank. Where did He want me to go from here.

I will never forget, it was late morning when He whispered the word Pastor in my ear. Immediatley and without second thought I started arguing. But God, the Church has a Pastor. But God, I'm not a Pastor, I get tounge tied just talking to my friends. But God don't you know I've failed at everything I've started. But God don't you know I'm better at being behind the scenes, it's easier that way, I'm more comfortable that way. But God, what could you possibly see in me that You would want to use. But God groups of people make me nervous, speaking makes me nervous. But God, I'm afraid.

It did not take long for Him to answer my fears and my questions. Did you know there are 365 "Fear Nots" in the Bible...that means there is a fear not for every single day of the year...there is a do not fear for every single one of my fears.

I'm not a good speaker, BUT GOD is.
I'm not a good writer, BUT GOD is.
I won't be good at this, BUT GOD will.
I can't get up there and speak to these kids about Him, BUT GOD can.
I don't know all the chapters of the Bible, frontwards and backwards, BUT GOD does.
I can't answer any questions that might come my way, BUT GOD can.
I may fail at everything I've ever started, BUT GOD and His word never ever fails.

I'm NOT a Pastor, BUT GOD IS!

This is a most perfect opportunity for me to get out of the way and just let Him have His way. This is a most perfect way for my faith to grow. I'm an empty vessel, He can use my voice but it has to be all Him. There will be no way for me to make Him proud because it won't be me, it will be Him.

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10

I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. Philippians 4:13

No matter what giants you are facing today, God is bigger. You can't, BUT GOD can!


Jenifer said...

I went, well still go through this. I am not a writer, But God called me to do this with Him. I am not a speaker, But God called me to do this with Him. With God all things are possible if we trust and obey.

Lisa said...

I believe God wants us to be at the place where we are absolutely certain that we CAN'T and absolutely certain that He CAN. But God!

Phather Phil Malmstrom said...

What a powerful realization you've had Mandy! By opening ourselves to His Presence, we can truly find strength we never had before.

I have no doubt you'll be wonderful!

Have a Blessed Day!

Kandi said...


You just articulted everything that has been on my heart the last few days. I have been putting up a fight and arguing with God about everything I can't do, and yes I am right I can't do it, but God can. Thank you for being an empty vessel that God used to speak to this girl today.

Blessings to you Mandy.