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Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Changes!

Change...

My family and I have gone through A LOT of change in just the last few short months. It started 8 months ago and things have been going full speed ahead since then. For the most part I'm pretty good with change, I try to go with the flow. Take one day at a time and move slowly forward wherever God leads.
Today is not one of those days. It started yesterday and got worse and worse through-out the evening in to today. I feel tired, worn down, I'm tired of change. I'm tired of not knowing...I'm tired of feeling tossed around in this whirlwind of change that's happening all around me and in me. I'm tired of not knowing God's plan for my life.

I keep praying, I know where I can see myself but I wonder if that's where God sees me. I'm also afraid of getting left behind in all this change which I know God won't let happen. I know God is working something, He's in this awesome thing happening with our Church and with my husband and with my job and with myself and with our finances and I know He has a plan. Whatever it is, I'm ready for the change to slow down a little.

I guess I'm just really tired, and I didn't know why until today. Thank you so much Father for showing me what's going on in my heart. I continue to trust You Lord and I continue to pray and wait.

7 comments:

Jenifer said...

I hear ya. I do not liek change and I do not like chaos. But God is everlasting and He has a great plan for us. I firmly believe that.

Deane said...

Mandy, I hear what you are saying. I don't like change and I never have. When it is God making the changes we know it will be for the best but it is the 'not knowing' that bothers me. It sounds like you are holding up pretty good even though it probably doesn't seem that way to you. I just praise the Lord that He is there holding us up when He decides it is time for change. I will keep you lifted up in prayer. Blessings to you.

Mandy said...

Deane ~ I am good with change, i even like it, it keeps things interesting but today I'm just very tired and the change feels like a lot. God sustains I just have to keep my eyes on Him and not the path ahead. Thank you for the prayers :)

Kelli said...

Love that song and the lyrics! I like when you said, "I keep praying, I know where I can see myself but I wonder if that's where God sees me." Stepping out in faith to those places "God sees us," is the only place to be. Keep following the heart of God girlfriend!!:)

Lisa said...

Mandy, I promise you WILL NOT be overlooked or miss what God has planned for you. I was just talking to my daughter about waiting. She's like me and hates to wait for anything. I want it now! But that's not always God's plan for us. We must be willing to wait on Him. Like the Israelites in the desert, we won't move until God says go.

Allison said...

I'm feeling ya sister! I don't like change. At all. One bit. But He knows what He's doing and it will be clear eventually!

Phather Phil Malmstrom said...

It's very easy to feel tired and overwhelmed when everything around you seems to be in flux, but He knows what's best for us and stays with us throughout it all. Prayers for a little calm for you!

Have a Blessed Day!